Today's another day of class. About 8 hours of my life and breath spent on today. Living, Going on. Trying to keep moving on. I was never emo to begin with. Never so negative or pessimistic. Yet, this part of my life changed me. My upbeat and naive personality brought on to me the careful truth unfolded. I will not mention anyone or anything from this point on. But ever since, I have become paranoid. Conscious. Worried. The World Ends With You, (A great game btw) Neku Sakurba was right. Opening up to others exposes me. Get's me deceived. Gets me hurt. All I am right now, here inside. I am empty. Today, I am. I still want to forge bonds. But not to dwell on them more. I've learned my lesson. Understanding other people truly is impossible. I can only get so far, sifting through the lies.
Today, after lunch with my other friends. The guys I'm trusting more right now, I did not flash a single smile in our class. My eyes that met others, showed nothing but a hollow emptiness. So now, I will stride my path with careful steps and ignorance. May the friends I still hold dear to me. The ones I allow to see who I truly am not follow into this darkness. May their link to me never waver. Because that's the link that stops me from cutting others off.
I miss them. But I still feel Empty.
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