No More Bitchin, More of Stories

So the other day, I have created a separate blog where I could bitch all day and no one would care. This blog is now for the sole purpose of my imagination and crazy fanfiction or general fiction. I'm working on the first story I will post up here. I've made a lot, but I don't want to post the ones I really want to turn into a book. So expect some later on.
For now, Here's me, playing the worlds tiniest violin. (Clap for TWEWY reference)
Here's the link to my Bitching blog.
http://thedailybaggage.blogspot.com/
Enjoy. Hope we get along.
PS: I love Paramore. I know I shouldn't say it too much, but shut up. Screw You, I love Paramore and I could care less if you get angry at me.

One Baggage At a Time

So today's Thursday. The Semester is Nearly over, and there are only 2 remaining exams to finish. If I know myself, I'd prolly just guess on it or, as one of my classmates said, use my common sense. I'm glad we finally got over the hard exams. I can't wait for tomorrow to end. In the span of 5 months, things started to go downhill with my "friends" in college. "Friends" Being the ones I used to hang out with all the time. But it's like they don't even know me. They say they're not mad at me, or that they're not avoiding me. Sure, I'd believe them. But action speaks louder than words so I attempted to do what I thought would test them, if they truly were the "friends" I had anticipated I would have. I changed myself, not permanently, but only for this reason. I turned from that annoying, chatterbox that wont shut up about Paramore, into that quiet, shy guy that sits around all day. It was a DRASTICALLY hard for me to do that cause I myself am a loud person. I don't do the whole quiet thing so easily, but I did. I did, and I didn't go with them during lunch periods or breaks. Not anymore, just to see how they would react. From the simple, "Why are you so quiet?" Question to the "Are you mad?" Or "What's Wrong?"s. The first few days, I got the, Why are you so quiet? But barely anything after that. They all assumed that it was natural, me being weird, which I am proud of. After that... Things got quiet between us. We barely spoke, or hung out with each other. That sucks. I really thought that they were TRULY the friends I had wanted to make. But I guess I was wrong. Wrong to think that they would understood. Wrong to give them so much faith, and then watch them throw it away. It's like, I'm no one to them. I'm just a stranger to them now. They don't invite me anymore, they don't ask me to hang out. It breaks my heart, and it makes me miss home. It makes me miss my friends from high school. I'm lonely now. I still have other friends, but I have to make rotations because I'm not close to the others. If only they actually persisted and really asked me. I want to tell them everything and tell what I really feel, but I can't. I just cant. If I do, they might think I'm too clingy, or that they'd misunderstood. It's better this way then. At least, I wont have to feel anymore suffering, We're barely friends. I don't think we are as much anymore.
I wish I could make friends with the other guys in class, but I'm too shy. Besides, I think they barely like me anyways. I think they talk behind my back or that I don't fit in. I'm just a loser anyways. What business would they have with a loser like me? That's why I'm glad it's sem break. I can finally have some peace of mind of the vacation and spend my days blissfully in bed or in front of my laptop like right now.
After this post, I'm prolly gonna make a new blog for the purpose of daily updates. This will now be officially my fiction blog.
I'll post up the link later on after I make the next blog.